Things can never be the same again... I dont know why i would do this.. but i think i need to let it out.. I regret what happened in the past. There's somethings you do in the past and don't want to remind yourself of it again. You think you can just move on towards the future and not think about it, but one day no matter what it'll come back to you and remind you of what happened, what you did, what you say... I cant stop thinking about the past, because now I've realised how much i love and need him. It's not just a want anymore.. I know for sure now that i need him in my life. I dont know why im still holding on.. iuno if its the right thing to do, all i know is that i feel safe and secure when his around. And when his not around i feel as though my world has come to a stop. I know its stupid to be feeling and thinking like this, iuno when or how i've come to need his presence so bad. He might think i'm annoying but what ever.. it jst mee.. it jst how im gonna love him and keep loving him.. I'm sorry if its annoying, but i cant help but feel insecure about him. I get jealous so easy because im so scared im gonna loose him. i cant evn think about loosing him.. because jst thinking about it makes me feel uneasy. I've some how become so dependant on him.. Its a bad thing in a way because now i feel so weak. I know i've done him wrong plenty of times, i jst want him to know that each time i've upsetted him, each time i've annoyed him.. its all because i love him. And he might think its an excuse, but beleive me its the truth. I wish i could rewind back in time to when we were together. If i ever get given that chance, i promise to make it up to him, to love him and complete him. I know its something that probly won't ever happen.. but i wish i can some how let him know that his still very important to me. I wish i can hold him again, and not think stupidly. I dont know why everytime we get close i back away. It's coz i can;t help but think that im being used. i cant help but think im just here while he hasn't find anyone new.. im so scared that when he does find someone new.. he'll never look at me again. This has dragged on for so long.. each and everytime we fight i break down and my life stops going.. i hope one day we can some how find a solution to all our problems.. Its been going on for too long now. & i wonder if he still love me the way he used to.hopefully one day he'll listen to what i have to say, hopefully one day he'll believe what i feel for him. Hopefully one day he'll appreciate me again.. I think i've finally thought it through now.. i think i know what im doing wrong.. i think i know how to fix it.. but iuno how i will be feeling about it.. i wish he can tell me something to make it all better.. i guess in the end.. it doesnt matter if we're given another chance or not. What ever happens between us, i never want to loose him.. friends or not he'll always be in my heart. no matter how much we hate each other, no matter how much i cry, no matter how much we scream at each other, no matter how much we swear, now matter how much it hurts.. I'm willing to go through it all to have him forever in my life <3 if forever doesnt happen between us.. atleast i know i've tried.. you'll always be my baby <3

I dont know why i would do this.. but i think i need to let it out..

I regret what happened in the past. There's somethings you do in the past and don't want to remind yourself of it again. You think you can just move on towards the future and not think about it, but one day no matter what it'll come back to you and remind you of what happened, what you did, what you say...

I cant stop thinking about the past, because now I've realised how much i love and need him. It's not just a want anymore.. I know for sure now that i need him in my life.

I dont know why im still holding on.. iuno if its the right thing to do, all i know is that i feel safe and secure when his around. And when his not around i feel as though my world has come to a stop. I know its stupid to be feeling and thinking like this, iuno when or how i've come to need his presence so bad. He might think i'm annoying but what ever.. it jst mee.. it jst how im gonna love him and keep loving him.. I'm sorry if its annoying, but i cant help but feel insecure about him. I get jealous so easy because im so scared im gonna loose him. i cant evn think about loosing him.. because jst thinking about it makes me feel uneasy. I've some how become so dependant on him.. Its a bad thing in a way because now i feel so weak.

I know i've done him wrong plenty of times, i jst want him to know that each time i've upsetted him, each time i've annoyed him.. its all because i love him. And he might think its an excuse, but beleive me its the truth. I wish i could rewind back in time to when we were together. If i ever get given that chance, i promise to make it up to him, to love him and complete him. I know its something that probly won't ever happen.. but i wish i can some how let him know that his still very important to me.

I wish i can hold him again, and not think stupidly. I dont know why everytime we get close i back away. It's coz i can;t help but think that im being used. i cant help but think im just here while he hasn't find anyone new.. im so scared that when he does find someone new.. he'll never look at me again. This has dragged on for so long.. each and everytime we fight i break down and my life stops going.. i hope one day we can some how find a solution to all our problems..

Its been going on for too long now. & i wonder if he still love me the way he used to.hopefully one day he'll listen to what i have to say, hopefully one day he'll believe what i feel for him. Hopefully one day he'll appreciate me again..

I think i've finally thought it through now.. i think i know what im doing wrong.. i think i know how to fix it.. but iuno how i will be feeling about it.. i wish he can tell me something to make it all better..

i guess in the end.. it doesnt matter if we're given another chance or not. What ever happens between us, i never want to loose him.. friends or not he'll always be in my heart. no matter how much we hate each other, no matter how much i cry, no matter how much we scream at each other, no matter how much we swear, now matter how much it hurts.. I'm willing to go through it all to have him forever in my life <3

if forever doesnt happen between us.. atleast i know i've tried.. you'll always be my baby <3